Submission...

Yesterday, I saw death coming... 45 minutes in the middle of the highway, the cars passing me by, and i just sat there welcoming the collision, welcoming death... I smiled and wished it would just hit me and get it over with... I tried to visualize the intense pain i would feel after being crushed by those cars... It felt good, it felt better than the life I find myself in right now!! Some greater power decided it wasn't my time yet, that i had yet more suffering to take and that peace and serenity would not come easily for me... For the first time in a long time, I am submissive...

a little dooness... exposed

A Available or single: Neither ;p

B Best friend- Someone who's actions speak before their words

C Cake or pie – Pie

E Essential item- mornin coffee and mornin shower

F Favourite color- RED

G Gummy bears or worms- Gummy bears

H Home town- Pluto/K-town/ home to me is not a place!!

I Indulgence- COFFEE, dark chocolate, sheesha :D

J January or February- January

K kids- adorable!! but some are just lil devils

L Life - I'm sick of it and i have nothing else to say ... but u meet people who make ur life worth living, just for them :*

M Marriage - its a lie, and a waste of time and energy and heart... one is better off without it

N Number of siblings - 1 bro

O Oranges or Apples- apples

P Phobias- claustrophobic, and cockroaches :s and fear of TK's haha

Q Favourite quote - “you cannot find peace by avoiding life” Reem :*

R Reason to smile- when daddy visits me and tells me he's proud of his little girl, RAIN, the Ocean, cloudy days...

S Season- Winter

T Tag 3 people- lol la mabee

U Unknown fact about me - its meant to be unknown ;) legafa !!!

V/W Worst habit- pulling out my eyelashes

X/Y Your favourite food- Sushi, Big Macs, SOUP.... the list goes on !! i love food !! and oh, anything my momma makes...

Z Zodiac- Rat :p

Coffee for the soul...

And so I decided to ditch my classes today and go hang out at one of my favorite chill-out places, Harbor Cafe.. A little coffee/shisha/snack place, 20 by5 meters if my math is correct, soothing colors, cozy couches, (cheesy arabic music) and great lemonade and coffee.. the smell of shisha makes me happy :) What I like most about it is the people. Mostly foreigners, women and men above 30 all in Business suits having their 1 hour shisha/lunch breaks..They walk in and walk out, no one looks at you, no one harrasses you, no one talks to you.. All mature adults doing business and i like to take my work there and join them... I'm tryin to get my mind off of things since it just kills me when i remember that i have...hmm 3 days of official school left?! aaahhhh the smoke :)

I'm Literally falling apart !!!

I'm turning into my car. Every now and then, a piece of my car decides to come off. Just like that !! I have a collection of the "parts"that I have actually cut off with a knife from my car :) This may sound disgusting, but I found it pretty incredible.. My toe nail fell off !! yeah !! just like that !! I didnt even notice it.. The entire nail decided to let go...My foot has had a "jal6a" in it for almost 3 months now and it has been numb for a while which probably explains why it didnt hurt.. There was not much bleeding because the blood was clotted. My toe nail !! omg !! I can see flesh !! It does'nt even hurt !! I'm nail-less... It was soo stunning.. I've been observing my feet for the past 2 hours and it looks like another one is comin off, real soon.. Wow, I really am falling apart !!

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