Submission...

Yesterday, I saw death coming... 45 minutes in the middle of the highway, the cars passing me by, and i just sat there welcoming the collision, welcoming death... I smiled and wished it would just hit me and get it over with... I tried to visualize the intense pain i would feel after being crushed by those cars... It felt good, it felt better than the life I find myself in right now!! Some greater power decided it wasn't my time yet, that i had yet more suffering to take and that peace and serenity would not come easily for me... For the first time in a long time, I am submissive...